True Color

The worst deception:

A guy can make you think he loves you, but he really doesn't. And a girl can make you think she doesn't love you, when she really does..

Why is it that we humans are so hard to understand. Usually, we say things we don't really mean and sometimes we do things opposite of how we feel. If only we can live simply and refrain from complicating things.... if only we can be honest and tell how we truly feel... if only we can be more understanding... if only we are more tolerant of the happenings around us.... if only... there's so many "ifs"....

Slumber

It’s 9:15 in the evening. I’m laying in bed and a little cold so I grab the blanket to cover my body... aahhmmmm... feels good, slowly feeling warm. It’s raining... has been since this morning. As I listen to the rain accompanied by wind, can’t help but be thankful that I have roof over my head to keep me dry and bed to keep me warm. According to the weather forecast, a storm signal no. 1 will be landing in our area. I sincerely pray that the storm will not go strong and may it not bring harm as what the others did.

As much as I miss talking to my friends, whom I always talk to every night without fail, I opted not to call them for a call conference. Tonight I would just like to rest and to close my eyes. I know it will be a while before I fall asleep.... No matter how much I wanted to, my mind and body is used to be in limbo past 11:30 pm.

Aaahhmmmm.... I long to have a dreamless and restful night.... the rhythm of the rain and whistling of the wind... a lullaby on this cold night...

For the Future

My office mate, Ate Myr as we should to call her is resigning today. I'm happy for her, she'll be working at Bahrain as a professor. It's an opportunity to improve and widen her horizon in the field of teaching. In terms of remuneration, it's five times more there than what she gets from her current position here. May it be for money or professional growth, as others would often say if something like this knocks on your door then grab it.

It's frightening to be on a diferent land and associating with people of different culture, yes, but somehow the idea of giving a brighter future for the family will out stand any reasons, doubts and apprehension one may have on his/her minds.

Always, the big factor on whatever decision we make is our family. It's always been about their comfort, future, and happiness. Now I understand what the word sacrifice means, it's taking chances and accepting the challenge of the unknown for the sake of our loved ones.

We had just finished giving Ate Myr a despedida party. Only the "DABARKADS" were in attendance. Each one of us is happy for her and as we convey our wishes and what we will miss about her, we can't help but let our tears flow... she's not just our senior in the office but a great friend as well. Our mini party is not complete without a song and here it is, I have to keep myself from looking at her as we sing because she's openly crying while listening us....

That's What Friends are For

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try to feel
The way we do today
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and know
These words are comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure
'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure
That's what friends are for
Keep smilin', keep shinin'


If an offer like this happens to me.... well I don't know... really can't answer if I'll accept it or not. For now, I wish Ate Myr the best and may the guidance and blessings of the Lord be with her where ever she go....sure gonna miss you!!!! Bon Voyage!

Tranquility

Am now sitting at the back of our building, on a monobloc, legs crossed, hands on my lap, my head touched the wall. I’m looking up at the white clouds and blue sky. The gentle breeze is blowing, caressing me and the trees and grasses swaying with it. I see birds and butterflies flying. The sun is partially hiding on the clouds. The white clouds is passing by and I see the coming of the dark ones... it’s probably going to rain later.



At moments like this, I appreciate the beauty of life, thankful that I have been born to experience it. My childhood memories come rushing in. Gone were the vast land that was once our playground instead the subdivions had taken its place. Cows and carabaos were there no more instead tricycles, cars and the like can be seen. No more freshly harvested vegetables from the backyard, can readily buy from the supermarkets. Aahhh... gone were those days but still got lucky to have experience it.

If only time could stand still... I feel so at peace... it’s so calm and so quiet. I would like to stay here a little longer but can’t... have to get back inside our office.

As I uncross my legs slowly get up, I close my eyes and let the feel of the breeze on me blowing through my hair. I open my eyes and slowly turn my back at the picture perfect sight... I’m back to reality.....

Pouring Rain

Rain rain rain go away! Pleeeaaaassseee. This is what I’m saying now, exactly the opposite when I was young.

During my childhood years, my cousins and I could hardly wait for the rain to come. Everytime there’s rain, we would be seen running in the street hands outstretched and feeling the rain pour down our bodies. We used the roof gutter at our grandmother’s house as our shower. Behind our houses there’s a creek that often rise during this time. We’ll be having a boat race there or sometimes used our slipper for the game. The empty rice field would be filled with children running around on bare feet. We enjoyed the feel of mud on our feet but also careful not to have mud on our clothes or will be having a good spanking when we get home. Don’t know how or why but I always end up getting a spank or two.... ouched...really hurt you know... my only consolation was that I had a great time playing outside that I can’t help but smile though my tears were running down my cheeks.

Reminiscing those times makes me wish that I could turn back the time when I don’t think of anything but to play, eat, and sleep...just to experience it once more. Though as adults, we are now free whatever we wanna do.

And since I’m all grown up, there’s one wish I’d like rain to be.... (hoping... da!... as if it will happen) what else but MEN... ahahahaha. Geri Halliwell really sang it well...its raining men hallelluyah raining men... God bless mother nature coz she’s a woman too...
If it really will rain men I ’ll ask maldita to join me so she can choose whomever she likes to have... hahahaha. If this event will really happen then I won’t say rain rain go away, instead it will be rain rain don’t go away, please come anytime anyday Paraluman and Maldita wants to play.... hahahaha.