MY PARALUMAN

Monday 3 June 2019

Monday 27 November 2017

Bestfriend Forever

Dear BFF,

It's been more than 25 years since we've known each other. From college till now our friendship have blossomed through time. Never can I remember if we have a fight or not, though what I'm sure about is that we always argue and agree to disagree on certain matters.

What I like most on our friendship is that we may not see each other often but when we do we just pick up where we left off the last time we were together. We can hang out and be silent yet its the kind of silence that is relaxing and comfortable. We don't need words to express ourselves, just seeing each other is enough to do that. When we talk, we don't sugar coat our words. It's direct and frank yet we don't find it offensive. We listen, give opinion, and plain honest with one another.

We never pull or put each other down but instead we encourage and push each other up. We don't insist on things but rather let the other decide on what she should do. We don't envy what the other have but glad she had what she had.

When your mother entrusted you to me I was deeply honored by the trust and confidence she had given me. She told me to always look after you because in their absence I am your family. And true enough we have been sisters and more. We are each other's confidants and critic. We knew each other's secret, joy, tears, and pain. We have been there for each other not only in ups but also in the downs of our lives.

When one of us is hurt and broken we are sharing it together... Cry together... Shout together... Then after awhile, laugh together.

Truly, we are blessed to have each other in this lifetime. And if we were to be born again, I will still want you to be my bestfriend. You are one of the best and treasured person in my life.

We still have more years ahead of us, let's make more memories to last us a lifetine.. Praying for your good health and happiness. I love you BFF.

Heart To Heart

Sweetheart,

You came into my life when I'm lost, confused, and felt so alone. The attention you've given me helped me forget the real world im living in. My attention and time was diverted to you that whatever distresses me was temporarily pushed aside. I begun to live a world where there's only me and you. When I'm taking into consideration what you will think and say in whatever I do.

From the moment I wake up till the time I fell asleep, you were there with me. Not a single minute did you leave my mind. The simple emoji received from you can brighten out my day. A smile would never leave my lips just the thought of you.

When we have our misunderstanding I can feel my heart breaking. My tears won't stop from falling. I would lose my appetite and won't eat nor sleep until we sorted out our problems and together again. It' s been hard during that times but as if nothing happened when we patch up. It's been the blissful time in my life the time I spent with you.

I really don't know what happened but somehow we drifted apart. You stop talking and I was made to wonder why. I got sick but you don't seem to care. I was left hanging in the air not knowing if there's still us I can hold on to. Then I learned you and your previous girlfriend got back together. Yes, I was deeply hurt. You won't even formally end it with me, not until more than two months has passed that I gather courage to talk to you. Strange but I wasn't even angry, though I felt sad. Still I feel it in myself that no matter who you love or how many women it will be, it won't make a difference how I feel about you.

I love you for who you are.... Your childish immature thinking and actions... Your hot headedness... Your jealousy... Your moodiness... Your disposition... Your views in life... Your love for your family... I could go on and on... What I really mean is I love everything about you. The good the bad and everything in between.

But even though our time of being together is done and over with, I have no regrets. You have shown me how I could love without waiting for you love me back. You have shown me how much patience and tolerance I can give in a relationship. I knew I'm loyal to those I love and dear to me but I just realized the extent I can give without asking anything in return. I've promised myself I will love you till the end... Till my last breath.

To me, to love you is to understand you.. To know your needs and wants... To not hold you back but to let you grow.... Thats why I'm willingly setting you free... To find yourself and be who you are and who you want yourself to be. But know that while you're on your journey I am still here cheering and supporting. you. Your joy will be my joy... Your pain will be my pain... And when you find your happiness I will be happy for you.

I love you... Always!

The Whispering Wind

I'm sad and crying when out of nowhere I felt a gentle breeze, blowing through my hair and touching my skin. I didn't anticipate nor imagine that i am not alone in my loneliness. The soft blows of the wind is with me while my tears were falling, while i was sobbing. Only when i heard it howling did I understand its engulfing me in it'ls embrace... Comforting me... Assuring me that everything will be okey.

As days past indeed things turn out fine. The worries and troubles lessen. It was then I realized how this wind help me clear my mind and straighten out some things in my life. I hope this wind will again whisper to me when I need it.

Thursday 9 February 2012

My Day

It's my BIRTHDAY!!!

Last night my family celebrated (in advance) my birthday with a dinner and table talks. We were entertained by my three year old niece who kept on talking and eating at the same time. Just a simple family get-together like that was enough to complete my day. Seeing how happy and healthy the members of my family were, I couldn't ask for more gift than that.

Though another year is added into my age, I can say that my life is just beginning. I'm now thirty eight but I feel as though I'm younger than my years. Whoever thought and said that life begins at forty really knows what he/she was saying. There were things I had learned and many more to learn. What better way to end the day than with a prayer... thanking our Creator for the blessings and challenges that came my way.

Am looking forward on my next birthday...